I am loved!

So often I forget how much people really do love me. I usually feel that I just exist in other people's lives and have no impact. I'm the person who thinks that no one will remember me even though I remember them. I'm starting to learn that's not so true. It's not that I think I'm too wonderful/awesome/weird/interesting to forget or care about. I'm just realizing that I really do have something to offer people even if I don't always know it.

I have my personal doubts and worries about whether I'm a good person, wife, co-worker, etc. I know that I'm not perfect, but who is? I am always trying to be a better person who loves others. Knowing that others love me in return is a fantastic feeling. It's hard for me to comprehend because I don't always believe it's possible, but I'm starting to grasp the concept.

This post is really to say thank you to everyone in my life (literally, everyone) who has been kind, honest, generous, friendly, patient, and loving to me. I feel your love and it makes a world of difference to a girl who hasn't always believed she could be loved.

Strawberry

You may think I'm going to post about one of the most delicious fruits in the world, but I'm not. I'm writing about my hair right now. My friend and I decided to highlight my hair last night. When we went to the store to buy the color we decided that it could be fun to just do the whole thing. It was supposed to be this nice pretty medium blonde color. (My real hair color is a dark blonde, not quite brown color.) I knew my hair would pick out the reds in any color that is put on it. It has just always done that. Well, this turned my hair into a very strawberry blonde color. I like it, but man it's a huge change from where it was before. I haven't colored or done anything to my hair in nearly 3 years so I'm not used to it. I will say that I've learned a couple of things from this.

1. Be careful about how much red the color may naturally have because my hair will soak it up.
2. When I just want highlights, stick to that plan!
3. Life is fun! Just enjoy what happens!

In-Laws and Movie Making

So, we have a new plan for now. We're moving in with Eric's parents next weekend. We'll be living in their basement and have mostly our own space, but we'll share a kitchen somewhat. It's good that I like them and hopefully that will continue. We're only planning to stay there for the rest of this month, July and August. The hope is that Eric will have an internship to go to in the fall and we'll move at that point. We just want to save money right now if that opportunity presents itself.

Also, Eric is planning to make a movie in August. He's working on getting the funding right now and as long as that goes well we'll be good. The next couple of months are going to be very interesting, but we're happy with where things are. We're just trying to let ourselves be available to the right direction and opportunities that present themselves.

Thanks to everyone for your support!

Interview

On Thursday afternoon Eric finally had a phone interview. It went well, which is great. From what I understand the interviewer is part of a group that wants to get more LDS filmmakers into the film industry. At the end of the interview he told Eric to research at least 10 different companies, what they do and what Eric would like to do for them. Eric is about done with that and will email it to him, hopefully by tonight. Then, this guy will talk to the people he knows in the business and see if he can't find Eric an internship or something of that nature at one of the companies on his list. He said it might be easier to get something in the fall since all the summer interns will have gone home, but we'll see.

Life is exciting right now, but we're still not sure what is going to happen. At least it seems to be moving in the right direction.

Limbo

We are officially in limbo. We don't know if we're going to stay in the Utah Valley area or move to the LA area. Both have their pros and cons. Some things I want to do more than others. Life is just hard sometimes. I want to go to LA so bad right now, but I don't know if that is the right thing for us to do. I like the comfort of staying in Utah Valley because I know it quite well, but I'm not sure if that is wise for us to do either. Why does life have to be so hard and confusing? Bleh!